Yes, I am yearning for when the boys were babies. No, I don't want another baby, (almost convinced myself of this) I just want them back as babies/toddlers. Whenever they have turned "2" I've always gotten baby-happy again...only this time I don't really want to do it again, I just want to snuggle my boys as babies. The last few days I have watched Brandon eat me out of house-and-home, watched him get dressed by himself only to notice how exceptionally long his arms and legs are (how did he get so lean? not my genes for sure...) and been frustrated on more than one occasion with his speech abilities to argue and just about win! We've entered into a new stage with both the boys...Brandon's toddler years are over and now he is so receptive to social expectations and how society works - Andrew and I are constantly explaining to him how things work and why some things "just are". And Cameron is now talking up a storm, holding conversations with us, eating us out of house-and-home as well, and very independant. So...no more baby stage...now we can sleep, now we can play, now we can teach. That last one is the hardest sofar to do.
Do I want another baby? Or am I just mourning and yearning for the lifestyle I'm leaving behind? I'm excited for all to come, I'm excited to finally sleep...I'm just a little sad tonight missing the warmth of those snuggles...
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